The Letter

well, it's a done deal. Finished. complete. no more riding the fence. we're now on our way up to nc to start our new "seminary" lifestyle. yeah, and guess who CRIED in front of her boss that she tries so much to please. ME! dang. I told Rudy(my principal) I wasn't returning next year and his reaction just jarred me. he said "Oh, don't break my heart," with such a serious, shocked face. I said, "oh, you're going to make me cry now," and that's when the flood came folks. the dam broke in all its glory and out came the rushing rapids. I had a raft in hand for safety. Right there in front of my very own boss, I was losing it. However, I'm not perceiving the "eruption" as a bad thing, just an embarassing thing. splotchy red cheeks, quivering chin, distorted mouth while trying to squeak out words from the dime-size hole of a throat I was sporting. The good part is that he now knows how much I love my job here in Dahlonega, how much I'll miss it..etc...He was very encouraging, telling me how much of a loss they will be at, how much he appreciates the work i've done the past 3 years...and how I'll find a job up there easily. He was encouraged that we are going now to Seminary, before we're tied down and how cool of a calling we have,..etc..So, the announcement went as well as it could have gone. However, I had to wait ALL STINK'N DAY LONG to talk to him. Talk about tying me up behind a truck and dragg'n me down a pothole road. sheesh! I couldn't even eat half of my lunch b/c of nerves. I wanted to tell the kids, but I wanted to tell Rudy first. So, it might be a rough day once word gets out, but not too bad. it will be a good day of closure and healing for me, but not too much for I have a few months left. baby steps here, baby steps. the feeling of liberation of knowing I've made a decision and am going forth with it, is incredible. Hugh andI are praising the Lord for His clear direction for us. As Proverbs says, "He knows the path of the righteous." I was claiming that this past week in prayer. With true committment, comes true liberation. Try it and see for yourselves. It's all about stepping out in faith. easier said than done, but soo cool at the same time. I look at my kids now in a different light. I think,"These are my last kids I'll ever teach at LCHS. These are the faces that I'll remember as being my last experience here." I've thought about coming back two years from now just to see them graduate and hug their neck. I really want to. I do love them so much, even when they DRIVE ME NUTS sometimes.